Tuesday, January 14, 2014

Sinking in Debt, Losing faith

I am a wife and mother of a two young children. My husband has been unemployed for a year and a half now which means I work full time plus overtime. I currently got a second job but can't even start it because I don't have the money to get the required testing they want done to start. I'm stuck. For the first time in my life I've hit rock bottom.

We are in a run down house with beat up cars and barely have food to eat. We have tried getting help with utilities but everyone says I make too much. I could understand that if it wasn't for the amount of debt I have. I am so desperate I tried selling my eggs but got turned down for not living close enough to a facility. We are about to lose everything I have worked so hard to get in life.

My family has not had a working stove for a year because we can't get the part to fix it. I never knew all the little things people take advantage of everyday, something like shampoo or toilet paper. Even toothpaste is a rare find anymore. Or laundry detergent which we haven't had in months.

I hate the look in my sons eyes when he hands me a toy that doesn't work anymore because mommy can't afford batteries because food and diapers come first, it breaks my heart in so many ways. I work to pay medical bills that are suppose to be covered by insurance my work has but has fell through.

I work to pay off a credit card bill that paid for my car I had to ha e or couldn't get my family around or to work. I work to pay off a loan I needed to take my husband for an emergency root canal as well as new tires he his car had to have for winter.

I work to keep the lights on in my house. I work for the gas to not be shut off. I work for the tons of diapers my children go through. I work for the water in my house to keep running so we can at least bathe.

I ask you to pray to the Lord on my families behalf, so that our prayers may be answered, our wishes fulfilled and our spiritual house restored to whole!

I work all this overtime even though I have no money to buy any Christmas gifts for my kids to open. I do t think anyone can really understand what I'm saying unless you've been in a person like mines shoes. The rich are getting richer and the poor are getting poorer is a very scary but true statement that makes me so angry anymore. I never thought my life would come to this but it has and it's depressing to say the least.

 I feel like I'm drowning and there's no way to come up for air.. If the right person sees this maybe..just maybe someone can help my family so I can someday return the favor.

I am a firm believer in faith, and trust that there are many among you worthy enough to pray for my future and family.